Truth of Pursuit!!

The action of following or pursuing someone or something. Pretty simple definition when you think about it. Even more simple is the fact as a man we love to pursue, hunt, and conquer things in life. As the leader of our house, I owe you an apology. At the very core of mankind is selfishness and pride. Without realizing it, the last few years I have failed to pursue you two the way I have pursued my career, status, perception and for that I am sorry. We all have an innate need to be pursued by those who love us; the both of you are no exception to this need. Physically it is easier for men to be present. The hard part is often being emotionally present. This is no different for your dad. However, admitting it is a weak area that needs attention and improvement means I am working on it. The beginning of the Bible through the end leads us through the ultimate story of His unfailing love, and we see that God our Father is THE pursuer of our souls. God has designed us as parents to be the first and most important people to model this love relationship for our children. I am able to love you both because he first loved me. For the most part I have just been a father who has desired to dictate your behavior and mold you into tough strong males. Furthermore, I have been more worried about the things you are good at verse not good at while not paying attention to who you really are as a person and how God uniquely made the both of you for his purpose. Not my selfish purposes. The problem with that is I have failed to listen to your needs, I have failed to get down to your level and understand that you are 5 years old not an adult who knows better, but most importantly I failed to pursue your soul. Honestly, it is very hard for me as I never had a physical father pursue my own soul. That is not the case any longer. Just as our Lord's pursuit is ongoing and never ending. So, will be my pursuit of the both of you. While there may be bumps and hard times. He called me for this role. Just as he stitched you in the womb, he made plans for me to be a dad regardless if I feel unequipped. As men we can be passive on things that we feel make us look small or inadequate. However, 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 says, "But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." My assignment may seem daunting, I may feel underprepared, or even unqualified. Yet that assignment came from the Lord and through his strength I will become a better father, not perfect, but more present in all areas of your life. It has been a joy and blessing to be your father. Please forgive me for missing the pursuit. I love you both. Father, we need your help to captures our children’s hearts – to lay down our lives so that they may feel your uncompromising love through us. Help us not only to seek our children out when it is easy but also when it is hard. May each of my twin sons know that they are worth my time, energy, and pursuit.